Been awhile since i have blogged.My mom passed away in her sleep,again,GOD answered my prayers & it was quick & painless.I miss talking to her,& wonder how will i ever fill this empty hole that i feel inside.I have been living alone for awhile now & it's the night's that R worst,as i hate going to an empty bed.No romance in my life sucks,but i guess thats part of the price i pay for being an addict,& did i ever really have a choice?As i look back,it seems i was going to end up an addict sooner or later.Depending on wat drug i guess.Now i find myself smokin weed to help me eat & not feel so nasea in the mornings its the roughest,not sure Y.But it seems i am always gettin sick n the mornings.Well i am comin off my oxazapam's this week-end as i ran out while in kingston & now i figure Y start taking those again now that i am through the worst of it-withdrawels i mean.Now to get off of this methadone !!!Well i am starting a declining slope on the methadone & hope to be off by 2010-this gives me 2 yrs before the Mayan & I-Ching prophecy fullfills itself or not.I dont like being relient on anything,& want to get off of all addictive sunstances asap!!! WELL I WILL END BY SAYING GODBLESS ALL PHA'S ACROSS THIS PLANET!!!PEACE N LOVE NOT WARS N WALLS EH FOLKS!!!JESUS SAVES SO BELIEVE & BE SAVED!!!-
